BEEN GONE TOO LONG

I haven't blogged since April.  Life just keeps getting in the way.  That and migraines.

I hate to be a downer when I write on my blog but 4 weeks ago my heart got broken again.

I have been walking my friend's dogs for 4 years since her husband died.  Beau was the oldest.  He just turned 13 and was the sweetest and most lovable dog.  He loved walking and he was very protective.  He got an eye infection and the vet gave him drops and he was doing good.  I went there on Saturday to walk him and his little brother and he was happy and doing really good.  On Sunday he wasn't hardly moving and acted like he wasn't feeling good so I didn't take him.  We took him to the vets on Monday for a follow up for his eye and while we were sitting in the room waiting for the vet, Beau had a seizure.  He started going around in circles and his head kept going back and forth and around.  I ran and got the vet and he confirmed it was a seizure.  Beau's eyes started darting back and forth and he couldn't keep his head up straight.  We took him home with some meds but he wouldn't take them, he wouldn't eat and he was very sick.  We took him back the next morning and I carried him.  I sat in the back seat with him on my lap and he hardly moved but his eyes still kept darting back and forth.  He couldn't walk so I carried him in and held him.  The doctor said it appeared he had brain damage from the seizure and has lost control of his bladder and bowels and appeared to be in pain because of the way he was laying.  He wouldn't drink anything so I put a little water in my hand and was surprised he licked it but then dropped his head again.  We knew he wasn't coming home with us.  I kissed him goodbye and he licked my face.  We said goodbye and held him.
I'm still not over this.  I feel like I've lost a child and he wasn't even mine.  I just wanted to say Rest In Peace my special dear Beau.  I love you still and miss you.